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How’s Your Apocalypse Going?
Before I start talking about how everything is going to hell in a handbasket, I want to thank Zoetic Press’s many supporters. A year and a half ago, things were a little crazy, and then 2020 hit us like a ton of bricks. Now we’re back with a new, larger format and new, non-literature themes. We hope you love the result.
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The smell of smoke is one of the most primal sensory experiences a person can have. It might indicate the proximity of other humans in the wilderness. It might tantalize someone with impending food. It could be the warmth and comfort of the hearth. It could mean that you need to run now, run hard, run far.
At 4:30am on August 19th 2020, I left my house for the last time. Toward the evening of August 20th 2020, my house burned to the ground.
The fires had been burning since the 15th, when a lightning storm ignited the dry brush that covers the mountains around our house. Every winter, we asked ourselves “is this the year a tree falls on my house?” and every summer, we asked “is this the year my house burns down?” It was a sincere question, and not without reason — California has been in a years-long drought, and we lived in the middle of a large amount of firewood that doubles as a state park.
The fire seemed small and isolated, but as long as it continued to burn near a power line, crews couldn’t get to the line to restore power. Our house relied on well water, and that well relied on electricity to run the pump. Without power, we couldn’t even flush the toilets, so after a day, my husband and I decamped to a hotel, where we spent a luxurious couple of days flushing the toilets to our hearts’ content.
On the 18th, power was restored, and we went home and reveled in turning lights on and off and running the dishwasher. We appreciate the simple pleasures. Come bedtime, my husband was lying in bed looking at Twitter as I brushed my teeth.
“They’re evacuating about ten miles from us,” he said, scrolling madly.
In the past when wildfires had come close to our house, my worry was theoretical and distant. This time was different. This time, the place they were evacuating was about eight miles in the opposite direction from the fire that knocked out our power. This meant that either there was more than one fire, or it was spreading incredibly fast. Like wildfire.
“Okay,” I said, giving my paranoia free rein “I know we’re ready for bed, but can we just take a few minutes and pack? I mean, in case we have to leave? And the dogs’ stuff? Just in case. Worst case, we unpack in a few days when the fires are out and we’ll have done it for nothing.
We agreed to pack three days’ worth of clothes. I don’t know why I only packed three days’ worth of clothes when I honestly felt that we might need to flee for good. It was the same illogical part of my brain that said that I couldn’t take clothes from the clothes hamper because they were dirty, and you can’t pack dirty clothes.
We put the suitcases next to the front door and went to sleep, relatively unconcerned.
“Come on my love. We need to go now.” Urgent words, but spoken in a near-whisper next to my ear by a man who loves me enough to know that I don’t wake up well.
As we loaded the luggage, dog crates, fire safes, some food, and the dogs into the cars, a terrifying false dawn rose from the west, the sky bright orange. At four in the morning, it was hot and dry in a way that our coastal California town has never been. Even more disorienting was the snow drifting gently and settling thickly on the ground, the house, the cars, us. Hot, dry, gray snow.
The first day we were allowed back onto our property to assess the damage for ourselves was a day with so much smoke in the air that even at noon, the world was in twilight.
I expected to feel some emotional wrench when I saw the devastation. Instead, I felt nothing but curiosity. What might have survived? What structures or objects could I identify? Our homes have a life just like our bodies, and it’s obvious when life has left them. This wasn’t my home, it was a dead pile of ashes.
Re-establishing a feeling of safety, not just after the fire, but after years of political upheaval and months of pandemic resulting in quarantining, is almost impossible. And not just for my family - for everyone. How do we recover when everyone’s broke, scared, and at their wits’ end? How do we maintain a civil society when everyone blames everyone else for the mess we’re in?
Whether you feel like we can still avoid apocalypse or you feel like it’s already here, we all have our own trauma of loss and disruption. We’re all staring apocalypse in the face. We all have our own stories.
We hope you enjoy these.
Lise Quintana
Cover art
MANDEM is an artist triad with an extensive exhibition and publication history. They work in a variety of media to create art that is simultaneously disruptive and beautiful. Their work on disability poetics, the visceral body, gender, and childhood is in critical dialogue with art history, religious iconography / mythology, and various –punk aesthetics. They have received grants from the Ohio Arts Council, Dayton Visual Arts Center, and FSU Museum of Fine Arts. Past artist residencies include the Associazione Culturale Il Palmerino (Florence, Italy) and Negative Space Gallery (Cleveland, OH). They have a studio at ARTFUL Cleveland (Cleveland Heights) and live in a centenarian, urban Cleveland house, surrounded by the empty lots where Little Hungary used to be. (https://www.etsy.com/shop/mandemik)
Hill of the Hidden People
Carolyn is a Pushcart and Best of the Net nominated author whose writing was featured in the anthology The Art of Breaking Up. Her chapbooks include Drowning Ophelia (Red Bird Chapbooks, 2017). Website: http://www.carolynagee.com
Momentum
Kevin’s debut novel is Night of the Living Trekkies and his latest book is Midnight Men. His stories have appeared in a hundred publications, and podcasts such as The Drabblecast, Pseudopod, NoSleep and Simply Scary Podcast. For more information go to KevinDavidAnderson.com
”Momentum” was previously featured on The Drabblecast.
Trick
Laura teaches at a community college in the Midwest. She currently has poems in Midwest Review, Laurel Review, and Pine Row, and her chapbook, Hack, will be published by Dancing Girl Press in 2021. She hails from Jacksonville, Illinois, home of the Ferris wheel.
Practicing Our Breathing
Courtney is the author of House of Mystery and the chapbook Sea Foam. Her poems have been published in Room, This Magazine, Carousel, and the Canadian Medical Association Journal, among others. She is working on her second collection of poetry, Anatomy of a Monster.
Revelation
Meghan is an author and poet living in Portland, Oregon with her fiancee, Carly, and her cat, Midnight Monster. She is a recent graduate of Portland State University. Meghan has work published or upcoming in NonBinary Review, RFD Magazine, and House of Zolo.
River São Francisco
Guilherme is a Brazilian reporter, photographer and visual artist He believes in photography as the aesthetic potential and transforming agent of society. Awarded in national and international competitions, Guilherme Bergamini participated in collective exhibitions in 31 countries.
Only the Outline of Our City Wall Is Left
Maroula had her book The World in an Eye published by Chapeltown Books, UK, 2020. Her works were published in The Caribbean Writer, Thrice Fiction, The Freshwater Review, The London Reader, Harpy Hybrid Review, Ake Review, Abridged, and Newfound Journal.
Reflections Past
Karen is a visual artist, writer and photographer. Most recently she’s been a cover artist for Arachne Press, Pretty Owl Poetry, Wild Musette, Existere Journal, Vine Leaves Literary Journal, Gigantic Sequins, Ottawa Arts Journal and more.
The Artist After the Holocaust
Bruce’s poems have appeared in Asimov’s SF, Analog, Weird Tales, Amazing Stories, Daily Science Fiction, NewMyths, Pedestal, Strange Horizons, Nebula Awards Showcase and Year’s Best Fantasy and Horror. He has received the Bram Stoker Award, the Asimov’s Readers Award, and others.
”The Artist After the Holocaust” was previously published in the collection White Space.
Creation is Destruction
Carter’s work has been in The New York Art Review, American Artist Magazine’s Annual Watercolor edition, Who’s Who in Art and About the Author. His poetry has been published in magazines and anthologies, and he has won the International Golden poet award.
Some Days When I Sit
Despy’s writing has been published in Copper Nickel, American Poetry Review, The Gettysburg Review, Colorado Review, Prairie Schooner, and elsewhere. Currently, she serves as Poetry Editor for Gulf Coast, Guest Editor for Palette Poetry and Frontier, and Editor-in-Chief of The West Review.
Bullet
Ron’s fiction has been published in numerous literary journals including South Dakota Review, Fiction International, Mississippi Review, and been nominated for the Pushcart Prize. His novel, Bliss Inc., was published by BlazeVOX Books. He lives in Los Angeles.
Prayer of Desolation
Kathleen holds a degree in fine art and has received awards for her photography, illustration and graphic design. The fragile gifts of the earth, the mysteries of human and animal behavior and the wonders of the cosmos are constant sources of inspiration.
All to Be Continued
Yuan edits Poetry Pacific with Allen Yuan in Vancouver. Credits include eleven Pushcart nominations, nine poetry awards & chapbooks, as well as publications in Best of the Best Canadian Poetry & BestNewPoemsOnline, among others.
Dry
Fred lives in rural Maine. He’s busier than when he worked in education. He volunteers, grooms walking trails in his 60-acre woodlot, and plays pidjin bluegrass on his guitar. Then, there’s writing.
Search the Waters
Donald was born and raised in Kahaluʻu, on the island of Oʻahu, Hawaiʻi. His work has been published in national and international publications. In 2015, his debut novel, Between Sky and Sea: a Family’s Struggle, was published by Bamboo Ridge Press.
”Search the Waters” was previously published in the e-zine Vice-Versa.
Wars
Adam is a confessional poet writing from the Pacific Northwest. His work has been previously published by Heavy Feather Review, From Whispers to Roars, and on Instagram by Chunk Lit.
Something to Run From
Katie is a writer and lawyer from Halifax, Nova Scotia, as well as a novice gardener, fiction podcast lover, and giraffe enthusiast. She has previously been published in anthologies from TL;DR Press and won the 2019 Songs From Luna flash fiction contest.
Omnia Tempus Edax
Thomas’s poetry has appeared in The Madison Insurgent, Upstart Crow, The Texas Observer, Born Magazine, Tribeca Poetry Review, Esthetic Apostle, Minor Literatures, and Overground/Underground. He is a professor of Medieval literature and Classics at East Tennessee State University.
New Home
Benjamin is a speculative fiction writer, road runner, and circular economy promoter. His fiction can be found in the Tales from the Weird Weird West anthology, Novel Noctule Magazine, and forthcoming from various other venues. You can find more info at his website benjamindehaan.net
Big Blue
Wren is a Literature graduate with a passion for language, writing and everything speculative in nature. When they’re not busy typing away, they’re usually fawning over their cats.
Endless Winter
Mark is an Artist, Author, and Musician. His artwork has been in galleries, museums, textbooks, and periodicals worldwide.
The Reinvention of Death
Louis is a writer living and working in NYC. Tiny robots constantly observe him, but it’s okay, they work for him—for now. His fiction has previously appeared in Interzone, GigaNotoSaurus, Translunar Travelers Lounge, and more. He is a member of the Clarion West class of 2020/2021.
“The Reinvention of Death” was previously published in Infinite Lives.
Oppenheimer’s Mistress and Shrödinger’s Cat
Lexy is an experiment. According to Hogan Assessments, Lexy’s main drivers are science, hedonism, and aesthetics; the Hogan also says she is high-risk because she’s mischievous and excitable. Twitter: @LexyExperiment
In Kitty Liffey’s Bar and Grill, Last Round
Kate published work in NonBinary Review; The Language of Little GIrls (David Robert Books); and in two chapbooks. She edits the 2 Bridges Review, published through City Tech/CUNY, where she teaches, and is an associate editor for the Bellevue Literary Review.
“In Kitty Liffey’s Bar and Grill, Last Round” was previously published in Umbrella, 8 (Winter 2008)
Collapse
Molly is the author of For Girls Forged by Lightning: Prose & Other Poems, Tender the Body, and The Neighborhood Psycho Dreams of Love. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Nothing to Declare: A Guide to the Flash Sequence, The Hopper, The Fourth River, and Bellingham Review.
Spider Web Tiffany Window
Robin is the author of Our Lady of Perpetual Degeneracy and Honeysuckle. Their novel A Million Quiet Revolutions is slated for publication winter 2022. Gow’s poetry has been published in Poetry, New Delta Review, and Washington Square Review. Gow is a managing editor at The Nasiona.
Red house photo
Natascha writes fiction, non-fiction and poetry, as well as writing for stage and screen. Her poetry, fiction and non-fiction essays have been previously published by Acumen, Litro, Flash Fiction Magazine, The Gay and Lesbian Review, Yahoo News and The Mighty.
Me2 Time
Lindsey self-identifies as a neurodiverse, Two-Spirit, elder storyteller with personal and familial roots in The American West. Their success and survival are attributed to an invaluable support network, meditation, and daily creative expression in words, sounds, and images.
After the Bomb
Lora’s poetry has previously appeared, or is forthcoming, in Uncanny Magazine, Strange Horizons and Asimov’s Science Fiction, and has been nominated for the Rhysling Award. You can find out more about Lora at lora-gray.com
What
Trish s a poet, blogger, and advocate for the literary arts. You can find her online at SelfishPoet.com and provisionally in Utah, where she runs the regional group Rock Canyon Poets. Hopkinson happily answers to atheist, feminist, and empty nester; and enjoys traveling, live music, wine-tasting, and craft beer.
“What” was previously published in Five 2 One Magazine in February, 2016.
Remember the Lake
Stacy was born in Los Angeles and attended Ramona Convent College Preparatory School for Girls in a former incarnation of his life. His poems, plays, and visual art have been published in Black Arts Quarterly, New American Writing, Foglifter, The Georgia Review and elsewhere.
Dear Future Forgive Me
Jennifer’s work has appeared or is forthcoming in New Ohio Review, Prairie Schooner, and Pleiades. Her chapbook, Fine, Considering, about her experiences undergoing chemotherapy for ovarian cancer, is available from Rinky Dink Press. She serves as a reader for Emrys.
do not go short on prayer
Perla’s writings have appeared in Bookstr, Elephant Journal, Indelible, Panoply, Stripes, The Hellebore, The Armenian Weekly, Walqalam, Rebelle Society, and Annahar Newspaper. She also teaches English literature and journalism at the International College, and writes for Bookstr.
“do not go short on prayer” was previously published on Walqalam.org and in Harpy Hybrid Review.
Shiva
Elizabeth has been in Clarkesworld, Flame Tree, Cosmic Roots, Eldritch Shores and On Spec. Her books include Dirk Quigby’s Guide to the Afterlife, Pandora’s Card Game, The Truth of Fiction, and The Adventures of Emily Finfeather. Her mural A Meeting of the Minds is on Mercado La Paloma in Los Angeles.
we watch from overhead, binoculars zoomed
Kate is a graduate from the University of North Carolina at Greensboro with a BA in Studio Art. She resides in Graham, NC with her cats Charlie Chaplin and Janis Joplin.
Post Apocalyptic Yoga
Janna lives in Walnut Creek, California. Her poetry and fiction have been published in various literary journals, including The New Yorker’s Daily Shouts, Luna Station Quarterly, Polu Texni, Zone 3, and Apex. She tweets at @jkbartleby.
”Post Apocalyptic Yoga” was previously published in Switchback 2017.
The Prologue
Tiffany is a social worker by day, trade, and heart, advocating for climate justice, gender equality, and animal welfare. By night, she is a prolific reader of anything decent and a writer. .
We Melt the Cage We Built Around the World
Martina studies creative writing at UNC Wilmington, and is the current Poetry Editor of UNCW’s creative arts magazine Atlantis. More of her work can be found in Arsenika, Typehouse, Slippage Lit, semicolon, Poets Reading the News, and others.
End times now
Nelson was born in Tanzania, mixed af. Lived in India for a year. At age 10 moved to the States (all over from the south to the west to the midwest to the east to Alaska). Joined the Army and deployed to a few places. Always good to see the way Empire works on its fringes.
Toska
Michelle has an MFA from Lesley University, and her poems have appeared in Memoryhouse Magazine, Iron Horse Literary Review, Lunch Ticket, Postcard Poems and Prose, among other lovely publications.
When they come for us
John has work in North Dakota Quarterly, Le Menteur, 2020 Antarctic Poetry Exhibition, won the Jean Ritchie Fellowship (2017) in Appalachian literature, and served as celebrity judge for the National Federation of State Poetry Societies (2018). He edits poetry for Abyss & Apex
The Garden
Zach is a Hawaii-born writer with stories in Adelaide Literary Magazine, Mystery Tribune, Ghost City Review, Spelk Fiction, Door = Jar, Levitate, Yellow Medicine Review, Ellipsis Zine, Wilderness House Literary Review, Drunk Monkeys, and Flash: The International Short-Short Story Magazine.
Differentiation
Binta is a Japanese fiction writer and essayist based in Kobe. He has authored the short story collection Colonial Time (2017). His short fiction has appeared in Hidden Authors, S-F Magazine, and Taberu no ga osoi, among others.
Citrus
Kalie is an upcoming poet and writer from Detroit, Michigan. Her poems focus on nature, fruit, and the cyclical representation found in the imagery of both.
”Citrus” was originally published under the title “Apocalypse” in Soundings Literary and Visual Arts Journal in 2016.
Bail
Keith (he/his) is a citizen-poet on the run from the law, yoga aficionado, and a stan without a country. Born in West Virginia, USA, between a crick and a hollar, he now lives in Washington, Douglass Commonwealth. @Kristophanes on Twitter/Facebook, keithdavidparsons on Instagram.
A Decade of Cosmic Demise
Bronte is a science journalist and creative writer whose work has been published in numerous online and print publications and anthologies. She is the 2017 recipient of the Thelma Hall Prize in Creative Writing, and also a mother who enjoys alternative rock music, dark chocolate, and cats.
Endangered Species
Guy background includes work as a film development executive, college teacher, and fiction writer. His short stories have appeared in SQ Mag, NonBinary Review, the North Atlantic Review, and in the Spring 2020 edition of The London Reader, La Picollietta Barca and Aftermathmag.org.
“Endangered Species” was previously published on Aftermath.org, and in SQ Mag.
End of the World 456
Emily has a body of work which ranges from graphic design to collaborative performances with Verstehen, an improvisational series which incorporates live painting and sound. She is currently based in New Mexico. www.eerankinart.com
Like Frida Kahlo’s Burning Bed
Al is a human person from North Carolina, United States. Their interests include dairy products, wearing cool hats, and doing housework in secret. They’d prefer you didn’t acknowledge their existence.
Sacrifice
PT was awarded an Honorable Mention from L. Ron Hubbard’s Writers of the Future contest for her first short story “Orev.” Her Flash Fiction piece, “Lucky Black Boy” has been featured in Montreal Writes Literary Magazine, Fresh.Ink Magazine and The Emerging Writers Reading Series .
Year 0
George is the author of Sea Above, Sun Below. He is currently working on a maximalist novel titled Morphological Echoes. Find him at www.GeorgeSalis.com.
Wormhole
Nnadi’s works have been published in Suburban Review, Seventh Wave Magazine, North Dakota Quarterly, Quarterly West, Blood Orange Review, PORT Magazine, The Cordite Poetry Review, Gordon Square Review, Rough Cut press, Trampset, Rigorous Magazine, Blue Nib journal, and many others.
Arrest
Sreyash has been extensively featured in Five Poetry Magazine, Muses, El Portal, Tagore for us, The Country Cake-Stall, The Orange Orchard etc. His interviews on art have appeared in Little Chambers Press, JuxtapozLive, Artesthetica Magazine, The Gooseberry Bushes, Swanspace magazine, among others.
World on Fire
Luke’s poetry has appeared in the Humber Literary Review and will appear in the Spadina Literary Review. His creative nonfiction story in French was a finalist in Napoli Racconta and translated to Italian, and a poetry manuscript was an honourable mention for the Harold Sonny Ladoo Book Prize.
Little House in the Crater
Emily writes clean fantasy and science fiction adventures with clever characters, fun plots, and lots of humor. She thinks the world needs more happiness and laughter, so she goes out of her way to create them.
Anti Climactic End of the World
J. J. is the author of 21 books, including An Unauthorized Biography of Being (Stories), Absurdity, Woe Is Me, Glory Be (Poetry), A Visit to the Kafka Café (Poetry), Gregor Samsa Was Never in The Beatles (Stories), and Morning Bafflement and Timeless Puzzlement (Poetry).
“The Anticlimactic End of the World” was previously published in An Affection for Precipices (Serengeti Press, 2006).
Aberfan
John has appeared in Soul Feathers alongside Bob Dylan, Leonard Cohen, Seamus Heaney, Carol Ann Duffy, Maya Angelou, and Sharon Olds. He is also featured in This Island City, Shape Shifting, Type 51, Seek It, For Rhino in a Shrinking World, New Madrid, In Flight Literary Magazine and others.
Horns of the Moon
Rachel’s creative writing and artwork have been published by The Tishman Review, Page & Spine, Black Rabbit Quarterly, and more. She has close to 6,000 followers on her blog lettersandfeathers.wordpress.com.
The Last Righteous Angel Has Fallen
Matias has authored many short stories of various genres which have been published or accepted for publication in forty short story anthologies, magazines, audio books and podcasts. A collection of some of his stories has also been accepted for publication.
The Day the Baby Arrived
Trish has had short fiction published in Writings to Stem Your Existential Dread and The First Line literary magazine, and has placed in the YeahWrite Superchallenge and “The Whanganui Chronicle” annual short story competition.
Titled
Angela lives in Utrecht, the Netherlands. She writes poems and very short stories about the strangeness of being human. She likes to put a twist on things, whether it’s dark, humorous, philosophic or playful. In 2020 she published More than meets the I, together with her favourite photographer.
Beneath This Sky, Myself at Night
Sherre is 2019 recipient of the Parent-Writer Fellowship at MVICW. She has two award-winning chapbooks: Green Ink Wings (prose) and The Name is Perilous (poetry). To read more of her work visit www.sherrevernon.com/publications.
Dome of Smoke
Bernardo wrote The Isle of Helyr, The Bloodmaster Trilogy and Teenage Death Songs, Vols. 1 & 2. His short fiction is in Coffin Bell Journal, The Dark Corner Zine, 101 Proof Horror, A Monster Told Me Bedtime Stories, Page & Spine and coming in 42 Stories Anthology, Constrain 280 and Rivet.
Land After Land
Jessica is the author of two books of poetry as well as two chapbooks. Her work has appeared in Lunch Ticket, RHINO, Tinderbox, and other journals. She is a community college professor outside of Chicago but comes from a small lakeside town in Michigan.
Lunch Poem
Rebecca is a high school English teacher who holds an MFA in Creative Writing from University of Missouri-St. Louis. Her poems have appeared in NonBinary Review and So It Goes Literary Journal.
Tofu and Chives
Lucy’s work has appeared in Contrary, Rogue Agent, Lost Balloon, New Delta Review, Hypertext and elsewhere. She is an editor for Heavy Feather Review and assistant fiction editor for Pithead Chapel. Find her at https://kowaretasekai.wordpress.com/ or on Twitter @Dango_Ramen.